Thought It Was All About Dichotomy ~ Now I’m Not So Sure

Last night I was thinking about what it means to me to “live a life in balance”. I started thinking about the times I feel most in balance and when I feel most out of balance. I began to realize just how much the dichotomy of life plays a part in my feeling of balance.

Everything about life is a dichotomy ~ and as an “all or nothing” thinker I tend to swing from one end to the other.

Fat ~ Skinny
Happy ~ Mad
Sacred ~ Mundane
Scheduled ~ Free Flying
Strict ~ Liberal
holding a grudge ~ forgiving easily
Love ~ hate
self love ~ beating myself up

and I could go on and on. It’s this dichotomy and my tendency to live in a state of either or that I believe leaves me in a life out of balance.

It seems like a natural conclusion that living in the middle of the dichotomy would lead me naturally and easily to a life in balance.  Seems obvious ~ but how the hell do you do that??

Or is it really living in the middle that creates balance or is it choosing the “best” end of the dichotomy and living on that end more often than not?

I mean let’s take fat vs. skinny.

Is being medium chunky the key to living a life in balance or is it really about choosing to be skinny (or fat) and moving to BE that all the time?  I guess what I’m asking is it the wavering on decisions, lack of confidence in what I want to BE have and do, that leads to imbalance ~ or is it really about living in the middle?

Hmmm…

I thought I knew what I was talking about when I started this post, now I have no frickin’ idea.  I thought it was going to be all about living in the middle ~ but now I’m not really sure that’s where it’s at at all.

honest vs. Deceitful

Do I really want to live in the middle? Do I wanna lie sometimes? Or be honest with others and just dishonest with myself as a middle ground?

Does that breed balance?

hmm…

I’m thinking that being honest ALL the time is really where I want to be living, but the times I’m living in the other end of the dichotomy is when I feel out of balance.

OHHH ~

Maybe life in balance is really about BEING who you REALLY are.

The times I feel out of balance is when I step away from WHO I REALLY AM.  So maybe it’s not about the dichotomy at all, maybe it’s about turning inward, and being open to realizing who I really am, at my inner core of spirit.

Abraham recommends using your emotions as a guidance system. When you’re getting off track you will know because you will have “negative emotion”. I know this in my head, but I keep thinking “ack, checking in with my feelings isn’t getting any work done” lol. Checking in with my feelings could feel like a waste of time, but I guess it would depend on what the “goal” of life is. If my goal is to live a life in balance, then checking in with my feelings, and trying to redirect myself back to feeling good would be my #1 tool to achieve the goal of balance.

So for example ~ If honest is really WHO I am at a spiritual level, I feel yucky when I know I’m not being honest (with myself or others). It is that yucky feeling that signals me that I’m not being/doing who I really am, and shows me I need to realign myself/actions back to center (center being honest in all action and deeds).

Well this has really moved me in a direction that I wasn’t anticipating, so I’m going to have to chew on this for a bit. I’d love to hear your thoughts ~ do you feel like you’re living a life in balance? What would balance in life look like to you?

I’ll be back ~